I was thinking this week cannot be worse than last week, but i totally wrong. God made a joke for me. I totally became a foolish. I dont know what is real? Who i can trust anymore. I hate myself right now. i was happily and friendly. i was always smile. I still can smile to people, but the painful who knows. I am lost. Dont know where is my way. Where am i? I dont know what can i do about my goal. Was thinking after go to university, everything will be fine. HOw about now?!!I hate myself like right now. Before i always look forward, but now I really really want everything go back. Tomorrow is another day, is that real? Maybe it will be worse than today.